Worth isn’t earned. It’s Remembered

Weeks ago I posted a quote.  “Worth isn’t earned.  It’s Remembered”

For as long as I can remember, my life has been about service, doing, accomplishing.  My worth has been completely tied to my actions.  (Numerology note: this is a famous side effect of a life path 8, but the 6s have it much worse, you poor 6s).

I do for others.  Make the care package, make the dinner, make the cake, make the cookies, listen to what they are going through, offer solutions, get to the root of their issue and do my best to address it.  I am a digger, I am all about finding out what the deeper issue is.

The only people that I “let” do for me are my parents and my bonus dad.  From them I receive.  To everyone else, I give.

I have gone through a pretty substantial transformation.  I am in constant communication with my spirit guides.  Together, we have figured out what my true purpose in life is.  Of course, it is service based. Really just an extension of what I have done all my life.  Try and help people solve their problems.

So we have built a business that I am exceptionally proud of.  The services that I offer can and will change lives.  It will bring transformation to others.  It will help them get to the root of their issues, offer validation and comfort.  Blending Numerology with the intuitive access I have to the other side, plus my natural ability in the Leadership space where it was my job to solve problems for others bring a value that isn’t offered anywhere else.

But no one is buying it.  Extremely low social media engagement, even with what I consider to be some pretty compelling posts.  I am at the end of the road.  The money has run out.

I have had a few big realizations throughout this process.  Energetically, I tell people that I do no need them, I am good.  I am strong.  I am capable.  I am here to help you.

My current Diamond also gave me some clues - root cause of 3, which is a fear of fully expressing myself, a fear of truly being seen.  Emotional expression is not safe for me.  You have no idea the courage it took for me to post a video of myself on social media.  I really thought that I had “done the work” and figured out what was getting in the way of my success.

You may be wondering “why didn’t you just ask your guides?”.  I do.  All the time.  But they are not allowed to interfere in my soul evolution.  They can’t give me all of the answers.  I have to find them myself.  There is a workaround however.  Spirit is allowed to tell me things. So this morning, I reached out to Thel (bonus dad’s wife, best friend’s mom who passed).  I asked her to pick cards to tell me what was blocking me from receiving and what to do about it.

Even though, I thought I had addressed it, my energetic signature is still telling people that I do not need them.  Which makes building a business that does ask people to connect with me—emotionally, energetically, and spiritually, somewhat difficult.

So I started journaling to find an affirmation.  It started with, I am a Leader, I am a Medium, in the middle I got to I am wholly open to receive, I am wholly worthy to receive.  And it continued with this;

My vulnerability connects people to me

I invite connection into my life

I invite love into my life

I invite support into my life

Because I am worthy of receiving all of these things just for being me.  My worth is not earned

The help I offer others, I offer because they are worthy of love, connection, support

This is true for me too

And this hit HARD.  I don’t help others because they’ve earned it in some way.  I help them because they are simply worthy as they are.  The last thing I wrote;

I AM WORTHY OF LOVE, CONNECTION, SUPPORT

JUST BECAUSE I AM

“Worth isn’t earned.  It’s remembered”

I remember now.